Monday, February 28

here he goes

fell in love with someone you don't actually know can turn out to be like this
so, i suggest you don't

Saturday, February 19


Hello. Since I've started work 2 days ago, seems that I have no time to update my blog so often. The work is quite exhausting and borriiingggg. Besides, the pay is not so good. But I have to work, to train myself not to be a slacker and to discipline myself a little bit. Still, I don't follow the rules at my new workplace >,< ex : I don't tuck my white long-sleeved shirt in, I chew candies and chewing gums, I sit whenever my department's supervisor not around, and I don't do my job much (not I don't want to, but they didn't teach me how to do it) and lots more :p Well, I guess that's all. I have Noon shift today. Buh-bye. Have a nice day (:

Need You Now by Lady Antebellum

Picture perfect memories, scattered all around the floor

Reaching for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I've lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I've lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Woah, woah
Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now, I just need you now

Oh baby, I need you now

Tuesday, February 15



A sound-like-beautiful name isn't it?Valentine was the name of a priest who served during the third century in Rome.
Well, I certainly don't celebrate Valentine's Day and never ever. First is because I am a muslim and muslims don't celebrate Valentine. Secondly, I don't have any boyfriend. In other words, I am a single girl, which means I don't have any partner to share the 'day' with. Even if I have one, I still won't celebrate the hypocritical day. Remember, the very first reason is still solid. 

I was pretty lucky today. I went out to hang out with a friend -just in case I meet him on the way- and to go somewhere to look for job vacancies. He didn't show up so I strolled around the mall by myself. My search came to an end when I got through the walk-in-interview. They accepted me and I'm going to start my job this becoming Thursday. Hope it will be great. I don't really need the money. I want the experience. 

you can't take my heart

I don't give my heart to damn people. No one can take care of it better than I do 

Monday, February 14


Maybe I'm a bit too harsh. I just can't stand it. You guys keep talking about it again and again. I just don't know how to tell you. So I did, a bit harsh. Err, I admit, it was really abrasive. I'm sorry I didn't mean to. I get bored hearing you nagging, you mean advice. Again, for every time I was disrespectful towards you both, this is a BIG whole-souled SORRY from me.

Sunday, February 13

its the BIG field

Since few weeks ago my dad has to commute all the way to Felda Rimba Mas, situated at Padang Besar. Today the whole family went there. After a visit to the mosque, we dropped by at Mak Lang Jat's house and then traveled to the Padang Besar the place where we can buy most thing at its almost cheapest price.

view from the top floor

there's a lot blouses with fetching designs here
My eyes caught a lovely turquoise checkered apparel. It is lovely, gorgeous, and what is more, is it is my style. Unfortunately my mom and sis weren't agree if I tend to buy that cloth, so I didn't. -_-" But if I see it one more time, I will definitely cash out my money for it.

my mom was picking up clothes at her favourite shop
She ended up buying 5 aladin pants, not included 5 more she'd bought last week. By all odds, not all of them are hers. And 3 blouses but she gave one to my sister.

the very cute little gowns for the 'littles'
Mak Lang Ida eventually spent to buy 5 or 6 of these clothes for her little eldest granchild, Damia Batrisyia.

my favourite stall
After the tedious walk around the mall without buying any single thing, me only >,< we had a splendid lunchtime at a small eatery there.

Tomyam Putih
Just look at the yummy prawns in the bowl. It is veryy delicious but be careful, it's hot too! I mean, HOT. 

ABC - Air Batu Campur
To cool down our tongue after the spicy Tomyam, we should have this ABC as drinks.

My not very little but cheeky brother, Nabil was enjoying his ABC
Me wearing my brother's so called hat. I told you, I didn't buy anything. Gugu >,<

Me, again. This is one of my MukaMintakPenyepak's faces

Friday, February 11

rebel has no good on you

on your rebellious day, you feel like rebelling at your highest point
you realized you just woke up from a less-than-4-hour sleep reluctantly
you were awakened by somebody even you refused to at first
feel like your head was smacked by the hardest stone
one shouted at you when you're in the bath room having morning wash ups
you were told to get ready for an occasion you weren't ready for
the others don't have to do what you ought to do
thinking that wasn't fair enough for you and everyone
started shouting at them loudly, disenthral dissatisfaction
you have no idea the truth the want for you,
the best they want for you, only the best
they left you all by yourself, resentfully
and you started to think what you did, regretted for your sayings
cried alone, sobbing and yes your mascara runs
but you can't bring them back cause you hurt them, badly, deeply
will they come back for you?
you broke their hearts into pieces, certainly scars will be there, forever
your tears can't glue their shattered hearts neither bring back their expectancy on you
and all I wish that it had never happened
and all I wanna say is "I'm sorry"

and who do I think I am?
Fool. Shame on you

Tuesday, February 8

grown up

Lollipops turn into cigarettes. The innocent ones turn into sluts. 
Homework goes in the trash. Mobile phones are being used in class. 
Detention becomes suspension. Soda becomes vodka. 
Bikes become cars. Kisses turn into sex. 
Remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground?
 When protection meant wearing a helmet?
 When the worst things you could get from boys were cooties? 
Dad’s shoulders were the highest place on earth and mum was your hero? 
Your worst enemies were your siblings. Race issues were about who ran the fastest.
 War was only a card game. And the only drug you knew was cough medicine. 
When wearing a skirt didn’t make you a slut. 
The most pain you felt was when you skinned your knees, 
and goodbyes only meant until tomorrow? 

we couldn’t wait to grow up

Thursday, February 3


Hari ni boleh diklasifikasikan sebagai hari yang kurang bernasib baik. Bukan hari yang tak bernasib baik, tuan empunya blog ni yang agak malang, hari ni jela [harap-harap]

Pagi semacam biasa, woke up tak berapa nak awal. Mandi. Makan nasi lemak sebungkus yang banyak gila tapi tak habis sebab telur rebus dia berbau. Basuh pinggan. Clear dapur. Habis semua tu, online. Main game Urban Warfare dekat Facebook. Best wa cakap lu! sekarang pun tengah main sambil-sambil menaip kat sini. Tapi baru main 2 hari, dah Level 12 kot. Hebat en? Muahaha.

Okay okay sambung cerita pasal hari ni.Tengah usha game tu, mak ajak pi kenduri lorong 1,sebelah jela sebab aku duduk kat lorong 2. Pilih baju kurung putih tapi takda tudung sepadan. So pilih la baju kurung pahang yang lama jugak tak pakai. Siap, sambung main game. Then semua ready. Keluar rumah, alamak sandal takdak. Mak dah sound dah "hang ni dah tabiat dah, tadi takmau caqi siap2, elok orang keluaq baru nak kalut". Tiap-tiap kali camni tapi tak penah serik. Terpaksa la pakai wedges raya tahun 2009 hari tu. Naik scooter Ceria, kain sempit. Tension aku camni!

Waktu balik tu, naik duduk sebelah ala-ala macam dalam gambaq ni sebab susah nak duduk, kain sempit -,- Sesampai depan rumah abang suruh turun. Aku pun terjun la konon-konon nak tiru Lara Croft dalam filem aksi tuh. Motor pun jalan ah. OMG, kain tersangkut kat motor. Streeeet, aku jatuh kat situ macam nangka tak berapa nak busuk. Habis terseret kaki aku. Kain berlubang. Tali kasut putus. Haih lawak betul.

At first rasa sengal kat buku lali. Urut sikit letak minyak. Jalan dah macam si capik kat tv1 tu. Ada hati lagi ikut Chaq pi shopping tudung kat Jalan Pegawai. Macam ayam betul kedai tu. Buat promosi tapi bukak kedai sat ja. Takut orang beli banyak la tu. Balik. makan kenduri Chu buat sempena besday kembaq last week, 26 Jan. Petang tadi abah urut sikit kasi baik balik. Berjurai-jurai ayaq mata turun. wahaha

Sampai malam, nak jalan dah tak boleh. berjengket-jengket macam main Teng Teng. Bengkak kat buku lali dah sebesar bola ping pong. Abah call Pak Lang Zain cakap nak bawak aku pi sana. Kalau nak tau, Pak Zain pakar dalam bidang urat saraf dan tulang dan benda sewaktu dengannya. Sesampai rumah dia, tunjuk la tempat yang sakit. Dia suruh lunjur kaki. Krakkk! Dia tarik kaki aku. Allright done. Sendi  dah masuk balik. Aik, macam tu ja? Fuhh, terasa tulang kaki bergerak. Bengkak tak surut lagi, so beli la ubat yang dia jual. Sapu kat kaki. Harap-harap esok dah boleh jalan macam biasa.

Ada hikmah di sebalik setiap kejadian
Ini mungkin balasan sebab behaviour aku beberapa hari ni tak baik sangat. Padan muka aku kan  -,-