Saturday, May 27

zillion things i blame you for

Hi

I'll start writing again since the other socmed is no longer safe. Neither here. But at least you won't be seeing me that much.

I have no idea what it got me to. I was me. But I was not me.

If you happen to read this (only if you google my name it'll bring you here)

I forgave you.
Nevertheless I blame you for walking into my life though I never welcomed you to.
I blame you for following me on my twitter via somebody else's tweetdeck
I blame you for mentioning me on twitter for whatsoever reason I forgot
I blame you for asking my other social media accounts to connect
I blame you for dm-ing me on instagram for the reasons I forgot
I blame you for asking for my phone's number so we can converse
I blame you for texting me almost every day and night tho you are a boring texter
I blame you for calling almost every night just to let me talk to myself
I blame you for calling me that day when I was in your town tho I never told you
I blame you for driving all the way to me that particular day I never asked you to
I blame you for whatsoever happened then
I blame you for not stopping me from liking you
I blame you for saying no while your actions were yes
I blame you for being quiet most of the time
I blame you for not letting me go when you should
I blame you for letting me be fool for you
I blame you for coming back after I try to push you away
I blame you for coming on my mind and each and every day I think of you
I blame you for following me on my social media watching each every time I post
I blame you for getting my hopes up high and letting it crash down to the earth
I blame you for hurting me, letting me cry which you might never knew cause I appeared to be so strong and firm in front of you
I blame you for all the reasons I should have not blamed you
I blame you for every heartbeat I think of you.

I just want to say fuck you in your face and just shut everything down but that just means I have to unblock you and that should not happen cause I might be a fool again.

Of all the reasons I blame you, I forgave you.

If you happen to come back, that won't be forgivable.

This is for you, F