Monday, October 24

three cheers for five years

currently addicted to this song
it really bothers me, and comes at the right time too
first version I watched S playing piano while singing this song. 
Damn lovely <3


I swear that you don't have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow
To wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you (I had in you)

Too late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words, so sing along for me, baby

For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same

I thought with a month of apart
Together would find us an opening
And moonlight would provide the spark
And that I would stumble across the key
Or break down the door to your heart
Forever could see us - not you and me
And you'd help me out of the dark
And I'd give my heart as an offering

Too late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words, so sing along for me, baby

For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same

And I will always remember you as you are right now to me
And I will always remember you now, remember you now

Sleep alone tonight with no one here just by your side
Sleep alone tonight

How does he feel, how does he kiss?
How does he taste while he's on your lips?
How does he feel, how does he kiss?
How does he taste while he's on your lips?
How does he feel, how does he kiss?
How does he taste while he's on your lips?
How does he feel, how does he kiss?

I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you
I want to
But I can't forget you
So when this is over don't blow your composure, baby
I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you I want to
But I can't forget you
So when this is over don't blow your composure, baby
I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you, I want too 


I dedicate this song for my beloved friend, you know who you are.

Monday, October 17

age is just a number

hello people. I am now eighteen years old, officially, no doubt. eighteen's birthday wasn't really enjoyable. plus i didn't celebrate it though. my friends forgot about it but no offense, everyone was busy. yeah, busy as hell. this year, I've gotten the best present ever. My boyfie, which is now my ex was the first person that wished my birthday but yet, he made me upset. After an hour, we broke up, again, and gratefully it was the last time. I haven't contacted him since then. Second is my future best friend, i guess, Aliff Abdullah. Thankyousomuch Aliff for remembering me. Wish to meet you too. Third is my sister, thanks a lot. Love ya. And the person that never forgets me, my besties, NurLiyana a.k.a Kak Long. Thanks honey. Really miss you btw  >,<  Then, the next morning, my parents called to wish my birthday, my little brother Nabil, followed by friends.. and so on..


Enough about birthdays, lets not talk about being old. Cadets started wearing their new white uniform since last week. I want to upload the photos but grieve, I can't cause the Puncak Langit wifi isn't working nicely. Bloody. And duh, my baby broadband is still with my sister. That explains why I rarely online and update my blog recently. I miss the INTERNET bytheway.


Lets finish this here cause I have tonnes of works to do. Got LA tomorrow (Lecturer's Assessment). Daa!

Tuesday, October 4

selfless creature

hello creatures. it has been awhile since I last updated my blog. lots had happen. frankly say, I was happier before. I didn't show it by that time. only now, lately, I've been thinking about how lucky I was to have them by my side and be my friends. I miss them, really. I wanted to cry but I can't cuz I've promised no to cry again, since the day he left. I've jeopardized my own self-satisfaction for my friends recently. you see, how selfless I am by now. they see I'm happy, each day, each time, each second, but they don't know what's inside. they'll never figure it out anyway. I'm living half alive and I'll continue it that way until I find my moment. anyway, that's the greatest immolation I can do for them by now. I'm not sure how's everything going to be tomorrow and the days after. maybe for most people around here, it's great. but if i have to be very selfless of me again, I'm not happy with it and only God knows what's going to be on me. I would not change, I would evolve for the sake of my own satisfaction. that's it for now. wish me luck on the becoming days. and by the way I'll turn 18 soon. though I'm supposed to be happy, genuinely I'm not.